Kovixen

Yesterday I went all Laura retro and put my hair in braids. After having the hair cut from hell last year, I was quite happy to be able to do this again. It totally reminded me of when I was trying to get pregnant, a feeling that is starting to come back to me, against my better judgment. My hair was all wavy and cute when I took the braids out last night, but this morning I couldn't get the wave out. As I'm refusing to shower until I exercise (a decision that left me a little smelly at times last week and led to zero exercising), I had to go to Walmart with the waves. Reminds me of the time I crimped my hair for a trip to Ames with Allison. We decided to go WT on the little trip. As I also crimped for my senior prom and my first sorority formal, this wasn't quite a big deal to me, just one more funny reason to use the crimper.

I can't believe I'm writing this, but I think I'm finally starting to feel like I have a handle on life again. Only took 17 months. We still have a bunch of small improvements to the house, but they are coming along and I have them all organized and planned out. Andy's gotten easier suddenly, so even the bad days are ones I can handle without running for the wine bottle after handing off a screaming baby to Peter as he walks in the door (only joking, sort of ;P ). I am making a few friends, leaving the house now and then without Andy, leaving with Andy almost every day without screams and tantrums, and I've lost 10 lbs so far, putting me under my pre-pregger weight, although still 5 lbs above where I think I should be.

The best part is that Andy has become fun. And while I've always loved him, I now cannot contain the LOVE I feel. It's infinite and amazing and I want to tell the world all about how cute and smart and wonderful he is. Doesn't everyone want to hear how he said "doggie" so clearly today? And how he can find his own nose when we say the word? He finds so many things neat and exciting and is just a joy now. I can deal with the molars which still aren't in. I can deal with the temperatures associated with it, the shorter naps when they happen, all of it. Because he is so perfect I would be happy to just stare at him for the rest of my life. I know I've been told this time would come, but I really did doubt it, and I'm so happy it's finally arrived.