Kovixen

On the Today Show today, they talked about girl crushes. They kept stressing that this is a nonsexual thing. It is like a friend crush, someone that you really admire and want to be friends with. Everyone was talking about it like it's some sort of new neat phenomenum. I've had girl crushes my entire life, it's just like a male crush, just different. Jen is probably the biggest one I ever had, and I developed my crush when we were roommates. She was so cool and so put together, and I wanted to be just like her. She kept the room clean, so I tried hard to keep my stuff looking nice. She studied, so I did too. She wore make up and blow dried her hair, so I started trying to do those things (unfortunately, the make up part still hasn't stuck). Everyone loved Jen, she was the instant hit on our floor sophomore year. The guys all had crushes on her, and the girls all wanted to be her friend, and I felt so cool being her roommate. It was a total admiration. But she got pregnant that semester, moved home in December, and it all ended. My crush was still there, but it changed because she was so much more adult than I was. I've had plenty since then, none that have really stuck out though because I can't think of any. But they've been there, and I'm sure will continue to.

I was so sick this morning, I was on the toilet with the bucket in front of me. Lovely visual, I know, but I'm warning you all. If you want to be pregnant, or want to get someone pregnant, be prepared for this. I thought being pregnant would be fun. Sure, once in a while I'd be uncomfortable maybe, but no, this is not fun. This is hell. I feel like I'm hung over all the time, and I sleep horribly too. Do not go into this unless you are very very ready. It's hard to function when you can't leave your bathroom. All I can say is, thank god for ginger, chex cereal, and altoid, the new love of my life.

Speaking of loves of our lives, I was looking up someone in my 7th grade yearbook, but I used Peter's, it was his in 8th grade. I decided to read what people wrote in it, and it was so funny. He dated Amy Strickland for 3 years before he started dating me, and they got together on November 12th, at the first dance I found out. Amy was nice enough to tell me that and much more in her page long entry to Peter. She mentions some ring, that Peter doesn't remember, and she states over and over how she will love him forever. It's so cute. I wish I could read what her wrote to her. I always competed (and lost) with Amy in my italian class, she was so good at languages. No matter how hard I studied, she was better. So I was glad that Peter started dating me happily with no wish to ever think of Amy again. She prepared him for a long term relationship earlier than most, which led to us being married so young. I really could thank her for that, but I'm not going to.