Kovixen

I quit. I think I forgot to tell you that. I went in Monday and spoke to Lisa and she said she wasn't going to talk me out of it because she knew I had thought long and hard about my decision and it was a hard one for me to make. Actually I wanted her to talk me out of it. I felt better about my decision after that conversation, if they don't want me I definitely don't want them. She did make it easy for me, was very nice, and when I asked, she said I could come back at any time. My last day is June 10, the same day our 40% off for employees starts. I'm buying up a lot on my lunch break that day! Today was my last day working with Deanne, I started crying when I realized it. I'm sure I'll still see her, I'm just sad that this part of my life is ending. I like a lot of the people I work with, it's hard to move on. I came up with a great analogy of why I am leaving (I'm so smart). It's like when a woman continues dating a guy who will never marry her. It's so obvious to you and everyone else around you, but for her it's harder to see. How do you notice you're in a standstill? Even though you have a good relationship, how do you wake up and see it's not what you want and you aren't going to ever get it until you take action? My job at Barnes and Noble is that guy. Even though it's really hard to do, I must leave in order to move forward with my life and get what I want in the end. If only I knew what I wanted.

Last night at trivia, the picture round was singers/songwriters. One was Ryan Adams. I had no idea what he looked like until I found out I got that question wrong. He had spiky hair and was wearing flannel, I swear he looked just like Scott Weiland before he got totally addicted to heroin and lost all that weight. He is the Scott Weiland of ten years ago. I've really gotten into Ryan Adams during the last month or so, he's easy to listen to while at the computer. I'm also getting into Franz Ferdinand. With a name like that, it's hard not to like them. Their song Take Me Out is always on the radio, it helped force me to listen to their album. I'm really lazy with music a lot, I'll listen to the same thing over and over again. Right now that is Ben Folds, so not an entirely terrible choice. But I'm trying to expand my knowledge of music outside of the Top 40 area. I'm trying to find music that I actually like.

Do something with your life and box your thoughts.